It's not easy, some of our most valued and fulfilling experiences are often colored with a tinge of pain. Good days and bad days will be quite normal for you to see-saw up and down between feelings of coping and despair. As time goes on you will experience more peaks and fewer troughs and the troughs will become progressively shallower.

Part of coping with grief is learning to tolerate and work through painful emotions; it's normal to to feel feel frustration and depression – but please believe it is worth it EVERY DAY to take a deep breath, and START AGAIN.

If you’ve cut out activities that used to be an important part of your life,  it may be time to try scheduling them back in. Some of these activities may no longer feel pleasurable, if they remind you of your loved one, they require effort, or force you to confront difficult emotions.... you should consider scheduling them in anyway.

Love is patient; Love is kind, Love does not insist on its own way. Love bears all things, believes all things, Hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.
I Corinthians 13:4-8

Marijo shared this book with us. This is how it starts...

"The world is full of faces. Some familiar, some unfamiliar. Many are constant companions. They belong to those closest to us - a friend, a parent, a grandparent, a spouse, or a child. But one day a face is missing.......It's presence is no longer there. There's an empty spot, but not for long. A new face emerges to take it's place. It's unfamiliar and unfriendly.  It's the face of grief.
 It's not a comfortable place. It's not where you want to reside, but for a time longer than you wish, you will.  Often it will hurt, confuse, upset and frighten you.

The more we stand and fight, the more exhausted we become. The more you accept it, hold out your arms to it, embrace it, the more you will recover..."

Looking forward to share this amazing little book with you all when we get it..
https://www.amazon.com/Experiencing-Grief-H-Norman-Wright/dp/080543092X

(This is what the FSG is about)
"As you reach forward with one hand, Accept the advice of those who have gone before you,
And in the same manner reach back with the other hand to those who follow you;
For life is a fragile chain of experiences held together by love.
Take pride in being a strong link in that chain. Discipline yourself, but do not be harsh. 
The pleasures of life are yours to be taken. Share them with others, but always remember that you, too, have earned the right to partake.
Know those who love you; love is the finest of all gifts and is received only to be given. Embrace those who truly love you; for they are few in a lifetime…
Then return that love tenfold, radiating it from your heart to fill their lives as sunlight warms the darkest corners of the earth. Love is a journey, not a destination; Travel its path daily. Do this and your troubles will be a fleeting as footprints in the sand. When loneliness is your companion and all about you seem to be gone, pause and listen, for the sound of loneliness is silence, and in silence we hear best. Listen well, and your moments of silence will always be broken by the gentle words of encouragement spoken by those of us who love you."
~Tim Murtaugh